Again.... Today is a totally piss day...

Well... I really do not know if I had done wrong this round. I really hate to be scolded, anyway who likes it?

I have 2 dogs at my home, 1 name cash and the other Lucky. Cash was being purchased by Nicholas brother, and they were unable to cope it due to their mum dislikes and nagging of the nonsence the dog created, so place it at my house.

As for Lucky, I found him at the MRT station Wandering around and seems lost. So I brought him home. But the 2 dogs can't get along, once we put them together, they turn aggressive. And whenever we lock Lucky, he will bark non stop.

Therefore, Cash was the only one who had being locked up and become dirty and stink in no time after he bath cuz they did they toileting there.

Then decided to give Lucky away even though he is more obedient then Cash, reason not giving cash away because he was being purchased.

But no one wants when we wanted to give away. So after some period of time, decided to bring Lucky to Nicholas' place since Lucky was more obedient so decided to give it a try for a week without seeking his mum's permission.

I called his mum after I brought Lucky to his house, his mum said ok, but for whatever nonsence he did, she will shout at me when she got customer. And I replied ok.

Then Joycelyn keep asking who's idea is this, it's like wanted to point out who is the particular person who suggested that. And she said dun scared auntie scold meh. I mean I only wanted to try Lucky for a week, see how, at least i'm responsible to stay for a week to take care of the mess already.

Okie, then today when Nicholas and I came back. His mum asked if Lucky is obedient, Ireplied that he did urine elsewhere. She asked how?

How would I know how, only way is to train. How what! Not even 2days I already wanted to bring him back.

Then Auntie say I "ai wan", she stressed that for whatever nonsence Lucky did, she will scold me, AND ONLY ME! NOT THEM! Cuz I "ai wan".

Is this fair? I have to be prepared to get scolding everyday? I'm already responsibled for staying a week, what else she want? I told her the reason is becuz of Cash, but she replied no choice one, got to let them fight and be together. Like blaming my family and I for being soft hearted.

Oh well... I thought what if I want to have a dog in my future, den she no need to stay with us lah. Cuz Nicholas want to stay with her in future. I did not said that.

Now what I really want is not to come back anymore! Bring Lucky back to my house and return Cash to them.

Bloody shit... does she really need to emphasize that she will not blame joy they all? Why she suddenly said that, is it becuz Joy got tell her that it was my idea so that they no need to bear this responsibility?

How to live with her in future? 100% not staying with her. I can't ask nicholas not to stay with her, therefore the only way is I leave....

Was I wrong?

I think no one can understand me, not even my boyfriend. This was what happen:

Joycelyn and Douglas were intending to open up a chalet, were they were inviting us, Joycelyn thought of My birthday is nearing, so she whisper into Douglas' ear. Then when Douglas knew, he said that Nicholas should org the chalet since all this years, he dun seems to have org anything or surprise for me.

I agreed that he did not org any thing special for me. But I did told nicholas no need to book this Chalet becuz of my birthday, becuz it's like ppl ask him then he do. Anyway, even without my birthday they would still proceed with the chalet. Even before this discussion, Joy and Douglas had already check his's mum's NTUCLINK card for discount.

Then few days ltr, Nicholas book the Chalet. He sms mi, ask me to inform whoever I wanted to invite. I was quite fine then, but dun really look forward to it. Cuz I felt that the initial intention was not for my birthday.

Nicholas then told me that is Joy kept pressing him to book the Chalet online, and he paid full amount for the chalet.

Den I felt like being made use like that. And this present that Nicholas gave dun seem willingly one. Which I really do not like my birthday to be celebrated like that.

Being made use as, this chalet's 1st intention was not on me. Then Nicholas have to pay for the whole chalet because of my birthday. Therefore I dun feel like going and celebrating it.

So did thought of excuses of not going.

Then 1 day, I wish to buy him a Adidas Jacket which I had promised to get it for him on his Birthday, And intend to buy it earlier for him because I dun like the Jacket that he is wearing and have not wash for ages... So thought of this idea of exchanging our Birthday Dates, and get him the Birthday present earlier. And he could celebrate my birthday on his birthday and this coming chalet, since I dun like, become celebrating his birthday also, ifnot I will not come.

So I anounced to everyone to get Nicholas present for this coming chalet.

Then they ask Nicholas Y did I do that, Nicholas told them that because is not him who willingly wanted to book the chalet that is y i wanted to make a switch. But that was only part of the reason which how this idea came out. And I was not there.

Then yesterday, we were haveing dinner with joy, Douglas and his mum. Dun noe how they came to this topic of chalet abt the exchange of birthday. They keep asking y and joy ask again, she say that tie din hear properly. Damn she. Douglas say he really cannot understand my reason and shake his head and keep repeating. Joy and his mum keep asking y. I dun noe what to tell them.

His mum then say y wanna change, the gap is so big. if no exchange then can celebrate his 2 sons birthday together. Then she carried on with alot of things. Stressing mi, untill they can see that i'm not very happy.

I really dun now if I did it wrong or right.. I feel like being so crazy suddenly, y wanna exchage birthday, y can't I just dun go for the chalet.

Haiz....